learning to say 'no'

I've been heavily involved in community theater since 1994. As I approach my 30th birthday I realize that this hobby has lasted over half of my life. Since '94 I've done at least one production a year (the annual Christmas show), but most years have done at least two or three. One year I did nine... (I think I aged 10 years that year.)

In addition to the established theater in my area I've also been working with a smaller, city-(somewhat)-sponsored group. The city group performs on an outdoor stage in the city park. Every night we have to set up the rented sound and light equipment, often in near 100 degree heat. Then after the performance we take it all down and pack it away, hopefully before the sprinklers come on. It's stressful. It has been a rewarding experience, and I don't regret participating. I've made and strengthened friendships, realized who some of my true friends are (and sadly, who are not), and learned a lot about myself.

In 2007 and 2008 I was the Assistant Director and Stage Manager, and then last year had the opportunity to direct. It was my first time directing, and it was an educational experience (to say the least). I'd planned on doing it again this year. However, every time I think about it, I get the gut feeling that I should take the year off. Experience has taught me to trust gut feelings. A few people from last year had asked me what my plans were, and I had shared with a couple that I was considering taking a break.

I've always had a hard time saying no, though. I kept putting off calling the city's recreation director. But then she emailed me the other day. And I'm happy to report that I was strong. Well, mostly. I told her that I'd help with the backdrop, which I built (and rebuilt, but that's another story). And that the sound mixer board that I ended up buying last year was available to rent.

So it looks like I'll actually get to go camping with my family this year. And I'll have more open time to be able to go see my FireGuy in NYC. And maybe I'll actually get rid of some of the clutter in my living space. Hopefully, anyway